Somehow, I made it out alive.

Now that 2008 is seen as the year that was, it inevitably gets me into thinking how one year can change a lot of things in me. A lot has happened this year and the mere thought of saying it seems an understatement given all the experiences i have gone through. New experiences that i never thought of knowing, new emotions that i never thought of feeling... new perceptions that i never thought of realizing. It is funny that in just a span of one year, i have gotten myself in this position where i feel that life is giving me something i do not deserve. Did i deserve to be robbed of happiness? Did i deserve to be haunted by choices that caught me off-guard? Did i deserve to be locked in a place of silence or secrecy? I'm saying no for an answer. But, it happened nevertheless. 

Thinking of it now, i guess it all points to only one thing---I should have never underestimated life. Life that has its capability to contrast my beliefs, its power to bend a road that seemed straight form afar, its reality that bruised me through my heel's weaknesses and its gravity that pulled me from a stagnant elevation. I never really expected that the year that was was going be like that. But that eventually taught me one thing. That meaning, a realization which took me the whole year that was to figure out. 

That choosing to be happy is and will always be an option.

Because being happy is not at all harmful. Because being happy heals. Because being happy is never selfish. Because being happy is simply being the better. 

And, for the first time in my life, I am choosing to be happy, now. 

2009, here i come.